stop waiting for Friday. live now.

I hate it when you want to write something and the window just sits open and empty because you can't think of what to write and think that ignoring it for a while might help.
It doesn't.

But check this:
It's a wolfdog. I've been looking at pictures and breeders sites and I want one realllyyyy bad. (You can click the image to go to the website I got it from- this guy has a pack of them and has gorgeous pictures of them!)
So I've decided to get one when I grow up.
I guess they're pretty high maintenance, but I'm pretty sure I'd be willing to put up with that. They're gorgeous animals and I love dogs and wolves, so why not have the mix? Not to mention that I'd love to own such a photogenic breed. Their personalities and behaviors are awesome too, I get excited just thinking about owning one.
Haha.
I also wouldn't mind owning a dog that needs to be active as it would get me out of the house as well. I would love to have a good running partner, I'm sure training one to run with me wouldn't be hard at all.

Anyways.
This weekend I'm helping out running the lights and sound for a dance performance. I'm a bit iffy about this as it's sounding like the lady running the performance has quite high expectations as to how the lighting should look.. and we don't have that much time setting and programing the lights. Kind of annoying, but whatever. Not to mention that I am being talked up as having a really good eye for it all even though I don't think I'm as good at the lights as they are probably thinking. Well, I guess I'm just going to have to give it a shot and hope for the best. There is the rehearsal on Friday, which is when we'll be programing the lights and then two shows on Saturday and one on Sunday.
Man, I prefer drama performances way more than dances. Way more.

Last Sunday (Mother's Day), I woke up at 4:00AM and left the house by 4:45AM and drove out west in hopes of taking pictures of the sunrise with some mountains. I stopped at the gas station to fill up the Beast and the attendant there was curious as to what I was up to so early in the morning. Pretty sure he thought I was crazy since it was really overcast that morning and didn't look like there would be much to see. There wasn't, in town, but once I started heading west, the clouds started thinning and soon enough there wasnt' barely any clouds in the sky and the sun was able to coat the snow-covered mountains with a pink/orange light (the one picture on the very right hand margin of the page- 6:08AM- was taken that morning). It was an awesome morning. I saw a Skunk, several Coyotes, a herd of wild horses and a fair share of Elk. The flats in Ya Ha Tinda was gorgeous, the frost coated everything and made it all look white and sparkly.
Of course I didn't tell anyone I was going out there. I made the decision to go the night before and set an alarm on my phone and iPod, but didn't think of leaving a note or something for anyone who woke up and found me gone.
Silly me.
But I was back in time to wish my momma a Happy Mother's Day before heading off to church with the family at 9:30AM. I had left a card and gift on the table for her when she woke up, though.

Yeahhh. I still haven't been officially hired at the mill. It's pissing me off, but apparently they want to hire me, they just haven't found a place to put me. I guess the planer is full, which I'm kind of glad to hear because I haven't heard anything good about working at the planer. But a job would be nice right now.
At least I'm being paid $15/hour for this lighting gig.

My work-out regime is going... okay. I'm not losing really any weight. Well, scale-wise. I've been getting more toned, I guess, so I suppose I'm just losing fat and gaining muscle. I would like to lose the weight, though. I still have about 3 and a half months... but I need to really start working at it. Yesterday my sister and I went out for a run and we beat out previous times on the route. It was awesome, but I felt really weird afterward. I think I wasn't hydrated enough or something. But for not running and working-out much for the past week, I did pretty damn good. I'm thinking about running the hill today. It's probably best if I do.
Ugh, I hate worrying about my physical appearance. It's tiring and I always feel down about it. I can't remember the last time I was really satisfied with how I looked because no matter what I look like or what people tell me, I always think I am too fat or something. It's degrading.

Holy shmokes. I was worried that I lost this post when my computer battery suddenly died. Oh jeez.

I guess I should get ready for the day and actually accomplish something today.
I'm going to brush my Bud today. He's due for a good brushing. I'm going to take him for a swim afterward too. And take pictures of him, I haven't done that lately.
Good times.

Rachel

Oh. Shit, can't take him for a swim... apparently there's a bear in the river reserve and my folks are forbidding me from going down there. Boo.