I'm still alive and doing quite well.

Holy shmokes.

This past week or so has been nuts.

I wrote my last diploma, took my road test and passed, registered and insured my dad's truck, graduated, partied too hard, got my First-Aid with CPR and AED certificate, bought a laptop and new duffle, went and took a look around what's going to be my new home town for the next two months and am currently looking at mobile phones and plans.

Two days. Wait, scratch that... practically one day. I move Thursday, so tomorrow is my last day here. And I still have to pack. Arggg. My stomach hurts. :(

But I'm still excited. :) I'm a little worried about the internet situation though. It sounds like there might not be internet available for me to use where I'm staying. I'll have to search around for some wireless somewhere, I guess. :S How annoying.

I have to download iTunes. And get all my music onto this laptop. Somehow. And download a photo program. And a word document program. Golly gee-wiz! -_-

Tootles.

Moving Away

July 2nd. I'm going to be living an hour north from here and I'm
pretty sure I'm ready. Just have one more diploma and my road test to
take today. And tomorrow I graduate.

I'm almost tempted to go to prom for maybe an hour tops. I'm not
liking how my dress is fitting. To tell you the truth, I've never
really liked that dress, even though it is pretty. I originally wanted
a different one but the people at the shop was saying it was too late
to order a dress. So we went to West Edmonton Mall where the odds of
finding a different dress that I didn't have to order was fairly high
and that's where we found my current one. I've just been so stressed
out lately, I've gained some weight and now the dress is a little bit
tighter compared to how it fit when we first bought it. :( I don't
feel good when wearing it. But what can I do? There's no altering it
due to the tooling that lines the outer part of the dress. I guess all
I can do is hope it doesn't look too bad.

At least the party afterwards will probably be a blast. :) I'm looking
forward to that!

Well, wish me luck on my tests today. My little cousin woke me up at
3AM this morning when she started crying and then triggering my dog
into a near barking-fest. I haven't been able to fall asleep since. -_-

Live is sweet, isn't it?

Rachel

(Sent from my iPod)

Fire Fighter Jane.

I passed! I can officially be called a fire fighter, but I still have
so much training to go through. Not to mention that I still haven't
actually fought a fire... Hopefully I will get the chance before I move.

What? Oh, yeah. I'm moving away for the summer. :P I got the
internship job I was hoping on getting and am now a wild fire
dispatcher! YEAH. So happy right now. Today was a pretty good day. :)

Let's hope I can pass my road test. And get my first-aid certificate.
Oh yeah, and pass social, I guess I need to do that to graduate.
Golly, I don't think I'll do as well as I hope on my social diploma.
We'll see!

Rachel

(Sent from my iPod!)

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Yaay for the first day of Summer! :) It didn't really feel like summer
with the overcaust, rainyness but it was still a nice day.

Man, time is just flying now, it's amazing. I have so much to do this
week. I'm just going to take everything a day at a time. That's the
best way to do it, I figure. So I have my fire fighter exam to take,
my first-aid to work on and figure when I can get my certificate, my
road test to take, finish the second half of my social diploma,
graduate and find out if I got the summer internship (which I'm hoping
I'll get soooo badly, but trying not to get my hopes up too high).
Does that seem like a lot? It's all going to be done before July 2nd.
In a little less than two weeks.

ARGH!!!

This summer is going to be a gong show, if the first week of it is an
inclination of how the rest of the summer is going to be like.

I really am excited, though! Really!

Rachel

Oh, the title of this post is "summer" written with the phonetic
alphabet that I just learned while studying for my fire fighters test.
It makes me feel accomplished knowing that alphabet. :P

(Sent from my iPod!)

Life as we know it is about to change.

Change is coming, I can not only sense him but I can see him approach.
He is intimidating!

I walked home from school in a thunderstorm today. It didn't start
raining until after my run (thankfully!) but when it started I almost
mistook the big, large drops for snow/sleet. They felt so new, landing
on my head. I had forgotten the feeling of rain. Hearing the rumbling
of thunder only makes me marvel at the phenomenon that thunderstorms
really are. Streaking electricity across the sky, moving so fast that
it smashes the sound barrier and creates a great sound that has the
power to resonate through everything. What is it comparable to? I sure
can't think of anything.

Rain. I've missed the sound capable of lulling almost everone into a
trance or sleep, nature's lullaby, soft, fresh, clear. It brings about
a beauty, whether it's the beauty of green grass or blooming flowers,
or the rainbows that stretch across the sky with a promise intertwined
in it's colors. Rain can wash the morning's efforts to make ourselves
look presentable, leaving a natural beauty that only rain can create. :)

We graduate in 12 days. Less than two weeks. A celebration of
recognization of all that we've accomplished in 13 years of going to
school will be held, only to send most of us out to attend even more
school. It's facinating growing up and watching and listening to peers
talk about how they feel about graduation. Some (myself included) feel
excited anticipation, others are more nervous.

:)

Remember the little tune that the Lost Boys whistled in the original
Disney Peter Pan movie? It's been stuck in my head for two days
now. :P Fun!

How can a girl possibly worry about boys when God creates such
detailed, wonderful, beautiful things for us?

Rachel

(Sent from my iPod!)

Here she comes.

Three more diploma exams.

Four more days of high school.

One day of celebrating 13 years of challenging, fun and stressful times.

A lifetime of experiences to live, adversity to face and a lot of
growing up to do.

Bring it!

Rachel

(Sent from my iPod!)

And that concludes this season.

My last season of high school track and field has come to an end and
so has my career in high school running, in which I managed what I
thought would've been the impossible.

In every race I've been in this year, from Divisionals to Provincials,
from Cross Country to Track and Field, I placed in the top ten, every
time. A pretty decent accomplishment I would think! In all the races
leading up to Provincials, I placed in the top three and at Provincial
races I never placed any worse than seventh. I feel my high school
running came out to be successful and allowed me to be singled out as
a true jock in my school. :P Well, kind of.

Along with doing extrordinarily (or is it extraordinarily?) well for
my first and last year of running in high school, I've also managed to
make my coach cry multiple time, something I never thought I would
ever see or hear about! But I love my coach and I'm sure going to miss
her when I head off to college. I plan on getting her to write me a
reference letter that I can give to the running coaches at my college,
she told me that she would after Cross Country.

It was amazing after Provincials was finally over, I could feel my
body start to relax. I was a little disappointed with one of my runs
because I could've done better if I didn't decide to try a new
tehnique, but whatever. I'm just really hoping my school can get the
Provincial banner, my coach really wants it.

Now I feel useless. High school is finishing, running competitions are
done. I have to get to college to continue competing.. or I think I'll
go crazy. I think I'll start training for Cross Country soon. :)

*sigh*

Rachel

(Sent from my iPod!)

Nerves

nervesnervesnerves.
I'm so nervous right now.
Provincial Track and Field Meet is today. We leave at 8AM, hopefully to get to the track by 9:30 and then my first even starts at 10:30.

rawrrr. It's going to be raining all day too. And tomorrow, when I'll be running another event.

This is going to be fun. :)

Rachel

These are they days we live for.

The day that made me so nervous, I felt sick.

The day when we felt so upset and we just wanted to disappear.

The day when you saw the one you love and yet they didn't seem to notice you.

The day when he felt useless as he stood and watched.

The day when I thought I looked ugly.

The day that went by so slow when she wanted it to fly by so fast.

The day when you felt unwanted.

The day when we were so panicked and stressed and just wanted to give up.

The day when you remembered and missed loved ones that are no longer with you.

The day to whom I am constantly reminding, "you can not possibly get any worse".

The day when she no longer appreciated all the little things in life.

The day when he just wanted to leave home for good.

The day you cried, alone in some dark place somewhere in your mind.

The day I no longer saw why I should try.

...

'You want to know why these are the days we live for?

Because these are the days that keep us from thinking that life is perfect.

We are only humans.

Everything doesn't always go according to plan.

These are the days that make the good days seem even better. :)

Rachel