Finding a balance.

In some recent realizations of mine, I find that people do certain things because they're not balanced. Those things usually are not too good and sometimes become habits.

I think balance is important, it keeps us satisfied with life. I guess most of us go through life looking for that balance that will keep up content and feeling happy.

Running, I think, is my balance. If I don't run, I feel restless and.. guilty (for lack of a better word) when I sit around inside all day. When I could be outside. Running is a great stress reliever. You can run until you have nothing left to feel but exhaustion and I'm sure it could help you get a good night's sleep! After I run, I always feel content. :) My body feels tired and so when I sit and read, I feel good doing so. Not to mention the exercise is awesome.

Tonight is a good night. The sun is setting, leaving some warm light on the world and everything is quiet and calm.

This evening, I feel happy. :)

-Rachel

Blow me a whisper.

Hhmmm. I love music. :)

I've discovered a song that I really enjoy. It's called Break Me Out by The Rescues.
The lyrics I'll post here:

My empty room
Crowded too soon
I look for the fire escape
I picture myself
Running like hell
Making my getaway

The walls are caving in with no warning
This ship is sinking, I gotta swim for it
I'm running out of air

Break me out tonight
I wanna' see the sun rising anywhere but here
Come with me
Oh, this could be
The only chance we get
We gotta' take it
We don't do it now we'll never make it
Lose this crowd
Oh break me out

Whisper of our feet
Sneak down the street
Some kind of secret race
They'll carry on
Won't notice we're gone
So easily replaced

The walls are caving in with no warning
This ship is sinking, I gotta swim for it
I'm running out of air

Break me out tonight
I wanna' see the sun rising anywhere but here
Come with me
Oh, this could be
The only chance we get
We gotta' take it
We don't do it now we'll never make it
Lose this crowd
Oh break me out

The walls are caving in with no warning
This ship is sinking, I gotta swim for it
I got a feeling we're better off anyway
I don't care what they say

Break me out tonight
I wanna' see the sun rising anywhere but here
Come with me
Oh, this could be
The only chance we get
We gotta' take it
We don't do it now we'll never make it
Lose this crowd
Oh break me out

It explains what I want fairly well, I think. And the music part to it is really nice too. :)

I miss a friend. :( I miss quite a few people, but there's someone I really wouldn't mind hearing from. Actually, there's a few I wouldn't mind hearing from. Eh, you know what I mean.

It's awesome how no matter what it looks like outside, no matter if the weather isn't what you want it to be or whatever the case may be, it's still beautiful. It is always beautiful outside. :D

-Rachel

What just hit the fan?

Ugh, my self esteem has slowly been sinking down down down. :( I
just want to leave this town and travel, visit my friends down in the
States, head North to Alaska, then travel the West Coast down into
California.

Part of me wishes I did not have to go to college in the fall. I
just want to travel all over. I've been wanting to travel to Eastern
Canada too and down the East Coast. I kinda just want to travel all
over the States and Canada. Yes, that is a dream of mine.

It just seems unfair, having to go to school when I want to do so
much. For some reason, I feel like if I want to do all this traveling
and such, I have to do it now! As is I won't be able to later in life.
Who knows what is going to happen in four years?! My life seems to be
sealed after college to being a responsible adult.. The student loans
sure don't seem appealing.

School has been becoming somewhat stressful. I don't feel
motivated anymore. To tell you the truth, I'm suprised I've kept up
this long. Math class is becoming retarded, I am pretty much positive
I'll fail the Social diploma, but I don't really care as long as I get
above 60% for a final mark. -_- I guess that means I need to keep my
mark up.

Why can't a forrest grow in my room and an ocean come tumbling by
with a private boat for me? I want to sail through a night and a day
and in and out of weeks. Why can't I go to Where The Wild Things Are?

-Rachel

That's enough pouting now, Rachel. -_-

(Sent from my iPod)

runrunrunrunrun in the SPRING!

Track and Field practices have started up! YAAY. :D This makes me extremely happy, along with the fact that the snow has pretty much disappeared and it's nice and warm out today (15 C). :D:D:D

Yes, life is going fairly well. My Vancouver trip was too short, but that's usually how it works. I'm having issues getting some of my pictures from the trip onto my computer from the discs they're burned on. :( It's really bugging me because they're in RAW format so I need to convert them to be able to view them normally but I can't even do that because it just freezes up my computer! D: I really don't want to loose them..

While I was in Vancouver, my brother let me buy his 1st generation iTouch off of him when he bought his 2nd generation. I'm liking it veryyy much. I twitter and go on facebook and crap like that from it so it's sweet. Also, my pictures look awesome on it too. :) And it's nice to have an mp3 player with a screen (I still have my iPod Shuffle, but I just use it for running now!). It was a pain going through about 100 songs or so by clicking the next button and not being able to see what song you're at. -_- My running playlist isn't that long and I hardly skip through the songs so it's all good.

Man, I took my dog for an hour to two hour walk at around 7-7:30AM. It was beautiful out, nice and warm! :D I got some nice pictures of Bud swimming and being cute. I was hoping to find the moose that have been hanging around here (I saw them two days ago when I went running) but do you think they'd be around when I actually have my camera? Nope.
Sillies.

I SAW MY FIRST BUTTERFLY TODAY! I was raking the back yard and getting blisters on my hands when it flew by me. :D:D:D It was fluttering around the yard for a few minutes and it made me very happy. I also found one of my mom's flowers that had bloomed.
Yaay, Spring!

I'm going for my run now. :)

-Rachel

Independence is liberating.

Man, the feeling of being independent is so liberating. :)

On Wednesday morning, I had my graduation portraits taken. It didn't go too bad, though I don't really like my pictures being taken. The ladies taking the pictures were nice and made it enjoyable, which was nice.
That was around 8:25am. My flight to Vancouver was at noon. My mom drove my grandma and I to the airport and I just barely caught my flight. The line ups for security were so long, it was awful. I was bunted farther up because my flight was boarding but I still ended up having to wait quite a while in line. Let's just say that I don't think you've lived until you've had to run as fast as you can through an airport to get to your gate while they're paging you, by name, over the P.A. system. Especially if it's your first time flying alone. :P I must say, it was exhilarating!

Yeah, so far my trip here has been relaxing and fun. :) I love it here, Vancouver is so fresh. And green! Green grass everywhere! :o And Cherry blossoms and Tulips and Daffodils! It's pretty here and even though it's been raining today, its still awesome. The air smells lovely. :D This is what I want at home!

Right now I'm in my brother's place while he's at work. He lives with my cousin and, no offense to guys, but you can tell it's a bachelor's pad. :P No food (they always eat take-out). No fresh food. So I went to the grocery store and bought a loaf of bread, yogurt and granola bars for breakfast and snacks. They have a lot of little blocks of margarine, I'm hoping it's still okay... if not, yogurt on toast is still tasty for breakfast. :) (It's also kind of dirty here... I might clean up a bit...) Maybe later! Now I think I'll go take some pictures outside. The neighborhood is quite picturesque with the trees lining the street with cherry blossoms and green grass and cute houses. :)

Man, I'm glad to get away from home!

-Rachel

Like hell.

I feel like hell.
My mom is mad at me for one thing and the issue is the total opposite.
She has no idea and it's making me feel like absolute crap.
She doesn't even know.

Today is your day.

“Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So…get on your way.”
-Dr. Seuss

Europe Trip 2009 is now underway. :)
My sister and 30 other kids left at 8:30am from the school on a charter bus to the Calgary International Airport where they would depart at 1:25pm to Toronto Pearson International Airport in Toronto, Ontario and then board another plane at 7:18pm (Mountain Standard Time) that would take them to Paris Charles de Gaulle International Airport in Paris, France.
It's so exciting! I'm currently keeping my eye on a flight tracking website and watching the little plane fly across the world map, feeling almost dizzy knowing that my sister is actually flying that route. She's currently flying over the southern tip of Newfoundland, heading East at 35 400 feet and traveling at an seemingly uncanny speed of around 1 004 kilometers per hour.
...
And now they're starting their long trek over the Atlantic Ocean.



Jeez, I wish I was on that plane too. :P
The teacher in charge put together a blog that they'll be updating. I can't wait to check it. I have sent an e-mail to my sister already for her to read when she get's the chance. Who knows when she'll actually get to reply and if I'll be awake when she does. The 8 hour time difference is going to be a paaaaiiiinnnn in the rear.

Well, five more days until I head off for Vancouver! It sounds like my brother and I are going to the aquarium and then he wants to take me night skiing (actually, we both snowboard. But you get the picture.). It sounds kind of scary, but I'm up for it! What I'm not up for is my graduation portraits then morning I leave... I really dislike getting my picture taken and I'm really not photogenic like my sister. :| Bullocks.

They're now at 36 000 feet.

:D :D :D

-Rachel

And bless Dr. Seuss. What a genius. :)

May flowers always line your path and sunshine light your day.
May songbirds serenade you every step along the way.
May a rainbow run beside you in a sky that's always blue.
And may happiness fill your heart each day your whole life through.
-Irish blessing